It's hard to believe that it has been almost two years since I have last written on my blog. I say "my blog" like it is something that I do often.... but really it's just a webpage that I visit occasionally.... Hopefully soon to be rectified.
So much has happened in these last few years.... In October 2011, I gave birth to our son, William. Life changing event (as many people told me.) What a joy it has been to experience a NEW LIFE with someone.... I see why people have kids.... All the possibilities. It is such a clean slate. But oh so hard to know what to do, and how to raise a whole person.
In the last month I have gone against anything that I have ever studied for, and decided to become a stay at home mom..... I keep telling everyone that I foolishly thought that I would have MORE free time being at home.... But I don't. Secretly, I am enjoying every second of it..... How awesome it is to get up and know that you don't have to tell your little one that you can't play with them, hold them, sing to them, etc because you are getting ready to go to work. It isn't what I went to school for, but it is the hardest job I have ever done. What if I screw up? How do I teach my child to be kind, patient, loving, learn to share, and just live in this world in general? What an overwhelming, yet rewarding task. I can't say that I don't like it. It's much more amazing working 6:30am to 8:00pm at home, than working 9:00 to 5:00pm at an office. And in the evening, maybe I have actually accomplished something. But man, no stay at home mom has it easy.
I used to be such a creative person but work, life, time in general got in the way.... Maybe having a blog is a way to get back on the track of making something -- anything that no one has ever made before.
